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2010-08-05T08:16:00.001-07:00

OMG!!! I'm panicking!! ABT SCHOOL!

School have yet to start and i'm already panicking! this is insane!

My 8mc mod is already consuming my life. A friend called and said she's looking for group members for our project and i'm seriously worried.

LIKE SERIOUSLY WORRIED

I don't know if i can do well. I certainly hope for the best. But this semester seems to be off with a bad start. Maybe i just need to calm myself down and do whatever i can. I can't go off panicking about something so far in the future i cannot predict right? I constantly ask myself what is the most important thing to me in life. But I have yet to find the answer and in a year i'd be graduating.

No more gallivanting.

No more nonsense.

No more school holidays.

This is totally starting to sound like pretty bad. But hey on the bright side... I'm interested in so many things. Product design. Chairs.. Especially chairs and furnitures! Its pretty odd. But i seem to have this "high" for chairs. Don't u find them fascinating? Going to start a facebook album all about chairs. hahahahahha..... No idea where this interest is going to lead me though. I definitely didn't inherit any of those artsy fatsy genes from my parents. Totally bad at drawing. Dun even know where my degree will lead me. Certainly hope its a bright end to this seemingly endless dark tunnel. ^__^"

Dream

2010-04-21T05:10:00.001-07:00

Its been sometime since i've last posted on my blog. And from the looks of this long abandon blog, it is starting to look like its owned by someone who is suffering a depression. But to me, it is just a portal for me to write down my thoughts and if u happen to read it, i'm sorry u'd have to listen to me ramble.

I'm feeling very insecured at the moment. This feeling overwhelms me, it scares the crap out of me, it is killing me. I need peace, this is when i really need to find peace within me so that i can concentrate on studying. I'm scared. I know that i don't want to give up, but i am not sure if things would be within my control. It constantly frightens me and sends me thinking if things would have been different if i chose to apply for an overseas scholarship when i was in secondary. I am like an aimless float, drifting and searching for the one place to land. To settle, to find the goal of my life, the one thing that i would set of my passion, even burning my life for. Where is it? I haven't found it. I've been looking so hard but yet it eludes me. It is like a mirage, representing all that is beauty, surreal but unreal. Where is this dream I'm looking for? Maybe i'm exhausted, maybe i may not find the dream i'm looking for. What am i capable of? What am i good in? I have no questions to any of those. I'm merely a simple, very average girl. I envy those who know exactly what they want in life and have already set out on their voyage to achieve it. I do not know how long i have, but i know that i do not want to live my life just enough to survive. I want to have a dream, but what is my dream? Is there anyone who can answer this for me?

2009-11-18T05:58:00.001-08:00

I just spotted a long forgotten old snack in cold storage today and its impossible not to share the excitement!

Gosh... Deb got me a tin of these from one of her overseas trip and i can never forget those sweet tasting devil popcorn! After this popcorn will never taste the same!

Still it's costing a bomb to get one of these in cold storage.. tadaaaa... ($16 plus per tin) crazy hur?

All the supermarts are stocking up on their christmas packages and its omg expensive but it all looks soooo good!

There's this other really divine chocolate that I've tasted recently and they are selling it in a pack for like 8bucks! Forgot to snap a picture of it. Shall do so when i actually buy it! hahahahhaa... pull out your wallet guys! its time to do some Christmas goodies shopping to tide you through those late nights and major exam depressions!

2009-10-20T07:03:00.000-07:00

I'm so bored of coding..!!

I'm not even sure if i got it right.

I'm just coding class by class by class of it

SAVE ME!!

Wat a joke!

2009-10-09T19:40:00.000-07:00

I just made some pancakes.. [Notice the lack of excitement? COZ i failed?!!]

Actually.. it didn't really look or taste like wuffy fluffy pipping hot pancakes. It looked really much like fried roti prata!Actually it looks very much like those kimichi pancakes u can find in most of the Korean restaurants!

hahahahahaa... Well its going to take me sometime to recover from the failure and i think the next time i shall just stick to ordering pancakes from macs.

Sorry guys.. no wuffy fluffy piping hot pancakes till i rediscover how to make them in a non stick pan without frying it by mistake!

Well at least it was fun and it made my mood a lot better. The pancakes in the picture right there depicts my lifelong journey to the "production" of the perfect pancake. In the meantime, i'm going to try my best to punish myself by eating those "rotten" pancakes i made.

A very bitter post

2009-10-08T06:53:00.000-07:00

For starters.. i'm really restless today! I know there's a lot of work waiting for me to do, but i need to know that it's really crunch time for me to concentrate and really get down to it. But I just don't feel it. I think denial is setting in. Maybe a trip to the school library is in need. Maybe i haven't been in school long enough this sem to actually know i'm screwed.

I KNOW I'M SCREWED! I think my brain just refuse to admit it. It's in this comfy little corner denying the very existence of it.

There are times to do things and times that don't. I've been thinking of that and i know deep in heart that i shouldn't be watching tv or dramas or doing all things fun now. I should be in my misery staring at a bunch of words that isn't English but is suppose to be making some sense to me. Maybe all i want is just one day. JUST ONE DAY free from all these. Last friday could have been a great outing but it was all ruined because i didn't check the deadline for an assignment and my group had to stay up till 5 in the morning rushing it. I know i haven't been a great project group mate and I'm sorry for that. Please will someone just tell me why I've been born in this world? WILL U JUST TELL ME WHAT I'M LIVING FOR? Even better tell me why i'm in my current status now. It just doesn't make any sense to me. All rationalizing fails to make any sense of my situation now.

I'M FEELING BITTER RIGHT NOW! And i'm a bitch at it.

One more last thing. OMG.. this girl has a crazy collection of shoes! I really mean crazy collection! She's pretty. She's rich. She has nice shoes and clothes. Haizzzz.... how nice! Its the link at the side-->seaofshoes

2009-08-24T02:43:00.001-07:00

OK suddenly i'm feeling the panic attacks about my future so i'm here to blog and spill and make sure some of the panic waves will ride on far away.
I'm not excatly sure how this goes but i think it has something to do with me going for my first week of tutorials in a long long time and this being my 3rd year really sorts of weigh down on me in this rather depressing economic times. Why do we have to grow up? I'm not sure if i can even handle the corporate pressure and the constant rat race, heck I'm already up to my neck with the competition in NUS! Or just maybe it's the uncertainty of doing programming again in 2261 which after lots of small talks can be concluded one of the few creepy modules in SOC for people like me. I'm not quite sure if i can handle school anymore. I think all i need is a mix of motivation and some aim to work towards that will eventually lead to something nice?

Is it normal for a uni student to actually not know what they wanna do in the future? I guess i have another 2 more years to figure out but that is not going to be very long considering the past 2 years in NUS had just gone past in a flash. Suddenly the future seem really bleak as it closes in on me.

IGNORE PLEASE. JUST RANTING!

2009-06-20T10:27:00.000-07:00

PLEASE IGNORE... THERE'S NO PRIVATE OPTION AND I REALLY NEED TO RANT SO IF U'RE NOT AS BORED AS I AM THEN TAKE MY ADVICE!

IGNORE!

Facebook is really a heaven for gossip queen and kings alike.
And looking at the lives my friends are living i realized it makes me one hell of a boring person.
I'm what? 21 this year and the topics revolving around people my age seems to be.. erm... clubbing... drinking.... a bit more clubbing and a hell lot of birthday parties to attend. A few years older and that will change to a hell lot of red wedding bombs to defuse.

haiz.. and I spend my days in the malls. at home watching dramas. going out with a whole lot of different clique of friends. And that about sums up my life. haiz.. this is ultra boring!

if only i have free tickets to travel everywhere i want.
In my dictionary, to be more is to see more. to see more is to travel more.
Being stuck in Singapore is like looking at the big blue sky from the eye of a child.
In other words.... Sheltered.... i admit to that.... I guess i live a really sheltered life.

I think i need more friends... hmmm.. maybe the problem is i don't have enough friends to go around with. yeah... maybe i shall be more out there and start grabbing people to go out. That's a thought to start with. I guess?? Well u can only be young once right? People forgive everything we do since we're always seens as just big kids. SO might as well take the opportunity to make the best out of it right?

It's getting late. I should sleep now. NITEzzzz

2009-06-19T00:33:00.000-07:00

Back.. sorry for the long delay.
Couldn't stand the old blog skin any longer so i need to change it before i can blog in peace.

I realized I'm truly a boring person.
Seems as though this holiday has brought about the laziness in me and i simply refuse to make something out of it. Great holiday no doubt. After my results was released about 3 weeks ago, I've got the biggest sigh of relief in my life. It was as if it had un-knotted something in me and i started chomping the crap out of my life!

The relief also unleashed me from the claws of the needle of the nice/evil little machine that had manipulated the lives of many girls young or old(in case you're still wondering.... the weighing machine). I have to say that it must be temporary cause i seem to be going back to caring about those numbers again.
So goodbye my macadamia nut brittle(haagan daz)
goodbye my darling chomp snacks
I'll miss you all!

I have a feeling that this is going to be one really long post!
oh right.. been back from taiwan for a few weeks now and i have yet to post any photos up on facebook or my blog so I shall start posting some now i guess...
Forgive me for those really screwed up pictures coz i'm really not good with pictures.

thought it looked like toy cars so we snapped a shot of it

da jie & he jia next to the poster for taipei 101

this red funny looking figure here is the mascot for the building. Think they have about 5 of them?
jia smiling really stiffly. she's so cute but she hates to take pictures!??! don't ask me why

me with yellow mascot. They meant something but i forgot!
looks like it's trying to preach hence the stupid pose.
da jie with the superwoman/man pose
she looks odd if u ask me but what can i say? her tourist look will help her get everything off the hook.
shhhh... our secret ok? hush guys

saw this funny thing so i took a picture with it. didn't post any letters in case any of u were wondering.

that's jia being sarcastic coz we couldn't go all the way to the top floor despite it boasting about being the highest building around. so yep guys.. do not expect to go anywhere there. just three floors.. 91. 89 and erm.. 90 i guess..

it was really cold up there & it was a really long trek so forgive the frozen smiles.
i was in shorts for god sake i must be nuts!

had a nice cuppa of tea here! great view! ok drinks.

don't they just look like tai tais having afternoon tea?

me & he jia in pottery class
and yeah with a huge bunch of kids!we're big kiddies!

clockwise: piggy(me), supermom figure(jia), dinosaur-inspired teapot(da jie)

we took great pains to bring it back in a piece but it was still destroyed thanks to the bumping and thumping of the luggages.We couldn't even hand carry them! we didn't have enough hands to do that at all!

one of the art works on display. i like this one! colourful! kiddy but still nice!

chinese zodiac inspired art piece. cute hur?

i reckon this looks like tim burton's nightmare before christmas. especially the skelton man at the back near the house.
the less eerie version of it. cute!

da jie simply had to take a pic with this art piece coz i think it rang the right bells with her.
it was simple. clean and elegant. but it didn't make me wanna take a pict with it.
jie was really looking like a china tourist if u ask me! it's the hat! trust me!
she couldn't see 5 steps in front of her. but it's for protection against the sun. if u get my driff.
(we really do stupid things in the name of beauty) u know why this is really small right?

this is a live horse in a container waiting to be moved somewhere cool hur??

a typical train station in the less urban areas of taiwan. see i told u my sis is cute!
look at the way she matches the shirt we bought her from the last trip and her new shoes.
it was a nice beach right?? one of the rare pictures of us looking so smily so i simply had to put it up

one of the rarer pics of he jia giving the victory sign so of course i have to put this up!
still it was a really nice beach with a nice cool breeze to melt the cold smile of an ice queen

majestic hur? taroko national park in yi lan

me & jia. that bridge u see there is off limits so no we didn't walk on it.
there was a sinster story abt going up to that temple in the picture and something to do with the workers that quarry rocks from this place or something
anyways.. it was old superstition. the temple was built there to rest souls as told by our driver.
one of the tunnels we entered. this was one of the more famous tourist spots here.

this is our lunch. yeps.. this plate of purple thing here is edible. sweet and it's just potato.
pretty nice i'd have to say.

oh they had this set of veggies that would help to improve complexion and the workings of the bowel system can't remember what their names are called. But i highly doubt we can find it in Singapore though. In the pot, the veggies all looked the same to me though. But they worked pretty well. The 3 of us had a major stomach ache that night and the toilet in our hotel room wasn't really the best place to be in.

pose 1: a-typical model type 1

pose 2: modeling with the safety bar

me & jie with the safety hat

me & jie with the safety hat. gotta put a pic of this just to spite jia ahhhaa..

Clocking unhealthy hours in front of the comp

2009-04-03T02:43:00.001-07:00

Time to update my blog again...
I've clocked an unhealthy 16 hours spent in front of my computer today!
gosh.. i reckon my eyeballs are going to pop out soon if i stare at it any longer.
Been trying to write my 3265 report and it sucks man!
totally squash my pitiful amounts of brain cells into nothingness

I happened to take the heaviest part of the project and i wasn't even sure of the concepts ok!
Blame it all on the lecturer! gosh.. she's terrible man.. i don't think i've seen worst!
Anyways i couldn't give a shit about the project anymore so i just uploaded it for my project mates to pick and tick at the flaws of it. AND DO I CARE? NOOOO.. sorry man... if changes needs to be done i guess u guys just have to write me a paragraph on it!! I don't mind editing the language but seriously... i'm so done with the explanations already!
E-biz model. economic plausibility of e-biz model. e-biz strategy. Economic plausibility of e-biz strategy given the current market environment and nature of market.

I'M SO DONE WITH IT MAN! no more thanks...

Pimples popping... throat's hurting thanks to all the stress reducing chocolate biscuits i've been munching on. Chips amoy. Tim Tam are the sort of comfort food u can count on when u're stressed or depressed or pissed. They work great!

SO STUFF DOWN THOSE DELICIOUS LOOKING CHOCOLATE BISCUITS RIGHT NOW!

2009-03-16T03:20:00.000-07:00

back... this blog had been activity-less since the last time i got extremely frustrated over my day.
Coz...There was simply nothing interesting to talk about?
But...guess what??? i just bought a new laptop!!! heeheehee...
Woo hoo.. so happy!

let me show u a nice picture of my laptop:

Great specs man.. can't stand it! was totally loving it when i was playing with it at the IT fair..
My only complaint? the screen is a tad too small for my preference.. but i got it anyways..
I constantly fear that my current laptop is going to die on me soon and i think this prediction is going to come true soon. There was this really loud boot up sound my comp gave out as i was trying to start it yesterday. The end is near...

anyways.. check out this new song by this guy who's going to debut soon. In july i think??
Hope you guys will enjoy it as much as i did... he has this really odd expression in the middle of the song.. U'll get what i mean when u see it!

Hodges - my side of the story

There wasn't a particular moment.....

2009-02-18T08:55:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was an extremely bad day... that's one of the reasons i've decided to blog today.

First off, i forgot to bring my ez link card so i spent 5.40 to get to school and back.
Second... i took my laptop to school but i forgot to bring my adapter with me.
Third... i was conned by the photocopying shop uncle into photocopying a book that would have cost me less to buy
Fourth.... i'm feeling extremely useless today. I don't understand why god sent me to earth and not give me any abilities to survive in this dog eat dog world or as Herbet Spencer's puts it"survival of the fittest".

I'm feeling really tired and useless now.... and doing coding at this point of time simply makes things even worst. It makes me wonder what on earth i've been doing for the past 20 years of my life.
There wasn't a particular moment in my life that made me feel extremely proud of myself. There wasn't a particular moment in my life that made me feel extremely happy about anything.
There wasn't a particular moment in my life that made me feel extremely angry about anything.
There wasn't a particular moment in my life that made me feel like I'm born in this world for a reason.

Looking back into my twenty years of life.. i've realised i've been doing something that i'm not good at --> studying. And if you ever ask me what i would like to change most about my life if i could turn back time i would be rendered totally speechless because if i'm given a chance to change my life.. i don't think i would be studying in singapore anymore. The stress that i feel when i go to school... the constant fighting against the tide to swim upstream makes me feel really tired. The situation could be as bad as it is overseas but i would still like to experience a life/school life outside of singapore.

I'm really tired... I'm feeling really down right now... feeling extremely useless.

I couldn't help my friend with the coding project and i'm feeling very very guilty now. Although i've tried to code the same program in another way, i don't really know if i'm right or not. I've been in this course for two years now and i don't know if i made the right choice.. but being so useless after studying it for two years makes me a real worthless freak. Why do i even spend so much time on me?

I still don't feel any better after pouring out all my sorrows into this entry so i think i'm going to bed.. Hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day.

2009-02-14T20:25:00.000-08:00

My phone just went bonkers! I couldn't recieve any sms-s, sometimes i can recieve phone calls, sometimes i wouldn't be able to type sms-s coz the keypads refuses to function. I think it'll come to the point where i wouldn't even be able to make a phone call. So currently,the status of my mobile is a dummy phone as i would call it. Hence i'm currently in search of a new mobile phone.. though my contract hasn't even expire. Watever the case... i'm hopeless without my phone.

Been looking at some of the phones and these are a few that i've listed down...

htc touch HD

htc touch pro
htc diamond

blackberry bold

Oh my god.. all these phones are like super chio can! How i wish i can get it! if only i can get it for less than 500 bucks..! please god let me get it for less than 500... i really need a good phone now.. i'm not in the phone changing mood often so please let me get a good one while i'm at it!

Yesterday was V day but i spent half of it in school. Yes.. i went back to school to meet ally to study coz both of us have loads of catching up to do. BUT... you can say that it's not really that productive. I merely managed to finish half of the load of homework i have.... plus i didn't have to do the extremely blood boiling tutorial this week man... I'm feeling so guilty to not have started with the project yet.. i'd better finish my jap work soon. It's just so time consuming! arghh.. well.. i can't complain since i'm the one who decided to take up the "academic suicide" module!

Oh yeah.. and my V day date was of course.... ALLY!! ahhhaa... since the two of us had no date we decided to date each other... and it was so fun! So much things to gossip about. We even went on to commenting on this one girl's dressing coz she made such a big mistake of wearing too many attract attention things all together... ok imagine a black dress with white polka dots and a pair of red velvent flats with a peach colour bag. It was just wrong!

Too bad i made the wrong choice of choosing desserts. haiz.. new york new york was just the wrong place to go to get anything.. they went wrong even on the mudpie with ice cream. i mean how bad can a mudpie be? It was just like stale chocolate cake splashed with chocolate sauce and a scoop of some low quality vanilla ice cream. We ordered another apple crepe that tasted like bread soaked in white near tastless sauce. Sad.. can't believe they could actually go wrong with that.. haiz.. didn't take any photos though... didn't see the need to take photos for bad tasting food.

OKok.. i sink back to my hill-piled work packed homework.. i'll blog more regularly i hope.. ahhaa.. this blog shall not die like my first blog...! jul.. it will not die yet.. don't predict the death of my blog so soon ok?

The emperor's chair

2009-01-31T19:55:00.000-08:00

A really short post on my favorite nephew coz there have been complaints on not posting any new pictures of him on my blog.. so here are all the photos that i've taken recently but was lazy to transfer from my phone to the comp.

*court in session:
emperor in his chair listening to his officials reporting news from all over the world

hmm.. that's a tough decision.. what do u suggest prime minister cao
*Quiet! give me time to think..
general ching i command u to bring ur troops down to south wall to stop the barbarians from stepping onto my country's soil

woooo.. so high! this is fun! let's do it more often grandpa??

*hmmm.. comfy. daddy's arms dubs as my courtyard chair

*Woo hoo... my favorite chair: my grandpa's arms

*too bad..u get to see but u don't get to sit! nah nah ni poo poo
* looki me.. comfy comfy.. I love u grandpa!!

The above * are declan's thoughts added by me! ahhaa... hope u had a great laugh at it! okok... i know there are loads more pictures to post.. but i could only post these.. anymore pictures and i'll get pissed scrolling up and down this stupid small box that blogspot provides for typing entries.

Happy chinese new year everybody!!

2009-01-25T18:08:00.000-08:00

After all the cleaning, dusting, dumping and some really serious sneezing over the dust, the house is finally sparkling clean. The state of the house will probably be the only time in the year it's this neat, this clean... coz after chinese new year and once the exams starts to set in, papers, books, notes will be flying all over the place, like a typhoon had just gone through the room! ahhaaa..

Thought this was interesting so i took it down. It's some fake grass patch picture on the mrt floor
It's promoting this upcoming golf tournament i think??

Took a picture of my living room while waiting for my relatives to come
It looks so clean!!

Dad's interpretation of "buddha jump over the wall"
It's yummy!! woo hoo..

Every year on the first day of chinese new year, my mom's side of the family will drop by for lunch. And there's always so much food to eat. It's really hard not to eat anything at my house. The aroma of the food will be the first thing that greets u when u step in.... oh man.. it's totally too good to resist man!! Imagine a plate of the golden french fries, nuggets, popcorn chicken, seaweed chicken plus the table filled with chinese new year goodies and finally this nice looking bowl of "buddha jump over the wall" YUMS..... YUMS......

da jie's new set of toys for her new hobby--> tea appreciation

Drank so many cups of tea of so many different types during the two days of chinese new year that i felt odd not drinking any after it was over. For two days, tea was the first thing that touches my lips every morning and probably the last thing that touches my lips at night too! Can u imagine how many cups of tea i've drunk?? man... So filled with water in my tummy! ahhaha...

Had to wake up at 8 in the morning on the second day of chinese new year to exercise so that i could continue eating and not feel guilty. But still.. the day went past so fast and i think i ate so much all my 2 hours of tennis was pretty much gone.

lo hei on the 2nd day of new year at my uncle's house
super tasty salmon sashimi!! wooo hooo....

fake crab meat and sotong for my vegetarian eating aunt
didn't really like this dish.. it was filled with my much hated green peas pod things

yums yums prawns.. didn't take a pic of my mayo prawn salad though
coz i was simply too hungry

Shu shu's interpretation of "buddha jump over the wall"
it's filled with so much stuff... totally sinful to eat but it's oh so good!!
i should really start to learn how to cook these staff from my dad & uncle soon man

ok.. this was suppose to be sharks fin soup
but it didn't really tasted like the one my grandpa use to make
that was simply tasty man!! this was filled with so much sharks fin but i couldn't get a clear picture of it due to my phone's lousy quality

This was simply heavenly.
the thing in the middle is this huge mushroom my uncle brought from yunan china i think? It was so good??!!
The brown sauce at the side was so thick it was in every inch of that thick mushroom!
Yumss...

da jie posing for me with this wierd looking sea cucumber
she found in the huge pot of "buddha jump over the wall"

close up of that wierd looking thing.
didn't try it though. it was too bizzare for my taste

a snap shot of this cute little ox thing my aunt's new ang moh neighbour gave for chinese new year
So cute!! see the horns, the eyes and the two oranges in the belly??

And there... it concludes my two day of chinese new year. Haiz.. it went past so fast it didn't even feel like it was chinese new year~ And back i am now chionging my homework coz i was totally lagging behind on it due to all the new year shopping and pre new year/pre projects outing... hahaa.... I'm so far behind on the progress in school i haven't even started wat i call the mugging process yet! oh hoooo.. i'm so screwed man.. Yuls was done with her socio readings and totally freaking me out with her conclusion of the grading system i totally felt that i've just screwed my semester up! man.... i have to get back to my central library mugging period again! And soon!!

A trip to one of the landmarks in Singapore not owned by a Singaporean???

2009-01-17T19:43:00.000-08:00

Surprised??? Raffles Hotel wasn't owned by a Singaporean. Then again.. Singaporeans wasn't all that rich then under the colonial period. Singapore didn't really existed then. It was just an island owned by the brits.

The place we went to after failing to get seats in New asia bar.... Long Bar wasn't all that bad too since i've wanted to go there a long time ago. I'll find another time to visit new asia bar and city Space. It has such a wonderful view of singapore's night lights! It was awesome! I'll have to drag da jie's new camera to get some really good photos of that the next time.

The view that we got from our seat. Didn't mange to get seats inside... What a waste!

Juli's pretty drink!! Pina colada. Pineapple drink.. me don't like pineapple

xin got a little too high after her long island tea posing for me with a peanut in her hands

The funniest thing that happened that evening was that xin got a little drunk after her 3/4 glass of long island tea.. She started sprouting a little too much nonsense and we spent much of the rest of the night building jokes upon the nonsense. She gets really inquisitive when she's a bit too high.

Don't have the group pictures though.. i wouldn't get it till xin suddenly decides to upload the pictures in her cam to her comp. Which i doubt will be anytime soon.. I'll try to bug her for it though.. i didn't even get to see any of the pictures!

My next drinking venue shall be New Asis bar or City space on the 70th/71th level of swiss O! Which i doubt will be anytime soon... since dad and mom wasn't really happy with me coming home at 4 in the morning... hee hee... I'll have to wait a little longer for them to forget about this before i pull another 4 am. Otherwise.... i think i'll be condemned forever... ahhahaa....

A jog down memory lane

2009-01-17T19:22:00.000-08:00

oh my... can u believe it?? i actually went to my primary school friend's 21st birthday party yesterday!!! Huge mega surprise that i can tell you. I've never expected myself to be invited to a primary school friend's 21st birthday party probably coz i haven't seen any of them since ... hmmm.. let's see.... my primary 6 graduation dinner?? hmmm.. yeah.. 8 years... man that feels old!!

We took some pictures but i don't have it with me and i have no idea how i'm going to get it too!! We'll see... hope there's another class gathering soon!! It's fun to see what my primary school friends have become.

Happy birthday Yoong King. Shu yi J^2. Chin Shyan!!

Yoong king didn't change much from my image of him that i dug out from the depths of my memory. Neither did Yu long and kang wei. Ju Ren wasn't there but then again he didn't look that different too.. Yong Meng.. well.. we get to see him on tv so there really isn't much of a difference though.There was this guy called bing shun that i cannot even pick up from my memory! I totally have no recollection of him at all. AT ALL!!! It will require some old photos and old memories for me to pick this guy out from my brain. As of now.... he doesn't even exist in my primary school class!! ahhaa.. i'm that forgetful man!! ahhahaa....

It was fun though.. seeing what my primary school friends had become.

I wonder what my 21st birthday will be like.... studying most probably since it will definitely fall during the study week. But i hope i'll get to have a belated one?? ahhaa.. It's sad not to be able to celebrate my 21st birthday!! It'll be even better if i can celebrate it with xin xin, since her's is just 1 day before mine!! We can commemorate our 10 years of friendship!! Isn't that just damn cool?????

belated christmas party pictures

2009-01-07T19:08:00.000-08:00

This blog is getting real messy with all my blog post in the wrong chronological order. Coz i've been really lazy with blogging, the torment of sitting still at my table tears through me even now. It's just the thing that i don't wanna be doing during the holidays. Nevertheless, i'm still forced to do it as this is the bidding season for all nus students.

Well... here's the christmas pictures that i've just uploaded!!

This picture is taken on the very day of christmas and since shu shu looks so chubby tubbily cute i snapped a picture of him when jie and me visited him on that day:

shu shu giving me his ultra act cute pose

the family's new food toy! A raclette machine (aka:a cheese melting machine)

The second compartment: (white portion) the part of the melted cheese

This is how u eat it! pipping hot, googy and on top of a slice of bread or potato
Yums yums...

Titosh giving me an unhappy face coz he have to wait for his turn at the cheese machine

dingsy j^2 giving me the ultra satisfied look after tasting the cheese filled bread

jie feeding lengs m^2 with the fat loaded cheese laded bread

Our beautiful christmas tree loaded with presents can't wait to get my hands on them!!

timmybear looking intently at the nicely wrapped cocopops christmas tree
didn't taste as good as it looks though

Weak smile timmy really weak smile!

A closer look at the cocopop christmas tree
It does look really good right?

My nicest wrapped christmas presents by dingsy j^2
It's actually wrapped in a brown mahjong paper u know???
So cool!!Great idea right?

Oh... didn't take a picture of all my opened presents.. well. what the hell.... in summary i got one ang bao. 2 necklaces. 1 panthar imprint pouch. 1 nice t-shirt. 1 pack of choco and 1 kola bear stuff toy. I certainly hoped that everyone liked the presents that me, he jia, timmy and titosh bought for them. He jia and me spent loads of time and "leg energy" shopping around just for those presents plus the money we all spent on those presents.. woo... those pocket burning amts of money. I'm still nursing my burnt pocket from the taiwan trip and this christmas just burnt a deeper hole into it!!

Heck.... chinese new year is going to come soon and there will be an unprecedented amt of money that is going to flow into my pocket at only this time of the year. So.. come to me baby!! Let the money flow straight in my pocket... come to mommy!! ahahhaaa...

Oh right before i forget!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

A bad haircut that totally ruined my day!

2009-01-07T07:58:00.001-08:00

man.. it's official! i hate my new hairstyle! i look like a butch.. like seriously!
it's so short i don't even have any more hair to comb and play with.
Man this sucks.. when is my hair ever going to grow back.
I wanted to fully enjoy my last week of holidays but with this new hairstyle i'd have to turn myself into a hermit and lock myself at home.
This sucks to the max man! And i'd have to face my friends in school next week with this new hairstyle that i can't even bear myself!
Looking into the mirror is going to be a big no no till my hair grows back.
I'll shoot myself if i'm ever going to allow my hair to be styled this way ever again!
I HATE MY NEW HAIR!!
There's no way i'm going to post pictures of my new hair.. no way man... no freaking darn way!

He jia's birthday

2009-01-06T20:44:00.001-08:00

He jia decided that she wants to make her own cake for her birthday. Which i reckon will fail... but well if it really fails there's always the chocolate cake from four leaves to save the day! So she did her research on the ice cream cake that she wants to do and it's not really that cheap.

Which again is expected and again.. me and mommy ended up doing it for her while she uses her eye power to help. And so in goes the biscuit crumbs, butter,and melted ben & jerry's ice-cream. and here's the ending result.

the brown looking thing in the metal tin was the end result

The funniest thing was that we had to eat the cake in cups coz the ice cream was still too soft to stay in shape... but well.. it was not bad since it was just like eating ice-cream with biscuit crumbs? ahhhaa..

family photo!!

Outing with my dad's side cousins

2009-01-06T20:11:00.000-08:00

okok back.. after being nagged at by a few friends who decided that this blog will end up the same way as my very first one. So here i am to put up all the pictures i got really lazy to post this entire holiday.

lunch at brotzeit on a weekday

from left: shan yi jie^2, shu yi jie^2, mai mai

me and he jia with our yummy orders
jia's really skinny man.. she's so fair she looks positively ill

food choice 1: bread with ham, cheese, eggs and pickles
[can't remember the name of the dish but don't it look good??]

my pick!! All the selections of german sausages.
The white one tasted a bit odd

Pork knuckles!! yumzz.. chef's recommendation!
The potato salad is superb!!

Desserts!! yums yums.. special ice-cream with apple strudel
A bit heavy handed on the cinnamon but at least it's pipping hot!
this is the one dessert u'll never go wrong.
Nice googy chocolate with choco-chip ice cream. DELICIOUS!

Thanks to my mai mai for the treat. At a hefty price tag of 120 plus for 5. GReat food though..

me posing with shu yi jie jie for chanel.
damn i look odd.. watever!

me with shan yi jie jie posing for LV!! ahhaha
My first time shopping with her
Oh man... i look really tall next to her.

2009-01-04T19:20:00.001-08:00

wooo.. i know i've been lazy. Blog activity totally stopped after the exams are over! ahhaaa.. well... but as you would have already known there's simply too much other things to do besides staring down at the stupid computer.

It's been mahjong and guitar hero world tour and more mahjong these days. It's like the mad rush before school starts! Been getting pretty lucky at mahjong... ahhaa... my buddy tiles love me and i love them back! ahhaa... okok.. enough of mahjong talk for now

Well.. just back to punch some air into this already deflating balloon blog. gotta go for now!

FREEDOM at last...!!!

2008-12-02T18:52:00.000-08:00

I've enough of all the nightmarish modules for this year!! I actually managed to survive the much dreaded 1102 in the earlier part of the year and i hope i'll survive the modules that i took in the later part of this year...2100 2102 2250 en1101 fin2004. Seriously... i think i've studied the hardest this sem geniuely don't think i've studied any harder then this since i've started uni man.. hoping and praying furiously that i'll pass now. Currently i'm in the process of generating new brains cells so that they can be burnt in the next semester. I've already killed much of the reminding brains cells that i have this sem.. too much in fact i think i'm getting dumber.. ahhaa

Finally went out to meet ally and ade yesterday and guess what?? we actually spent one plus hour sitting in kino reading magazines and books. I really can't believe but we really actually did that!! Seriously.. it was surprising!Plus it was just a few days after my last paper. Couldn't believe that i actually took my paper last sat, it seems like it had been ages ago since i've last studied.

Oh man.. Reina jie jie said that she will go out with me after my exams but who knows she flew off to bejing without me!! NO FAIR!! she didn't even pack me in her luggage !! I WANNA GO TOO!!! Staying at home is really not good for health.. i'm eating coz i'm bored and i'm eating coz there's been nothing to do. i really wanna read my storybooks but i've gotta meet deb to get it and she's currently no where to be found!!! DEB if u see this sms me soon please???? i want those four books!! me me me me me me...

Emperor just went for his very first swimming lesson on sat!! he looks so adorable with that orange float around his neck paddling in this little tub of water.. so cute!! look at these!!

declan: looki me mummy... daddy.. look i'm floating!!swim swim..

declan: wooo.. what is this orange rubber thing around my neck?? woo.. what is that??
Quick gi po.. put me down there.. me me!!
declan: i'm totally shagged out from swimming even drinking milk is tiring! da gu po i wanna sleep let's hurry with the milk
declan:yumz... tired.. yumz.. tired
declan: daddy am i getting my milk? u going to carry me now??
declan: hee hee.. mo mo me me. me talking to daddy in my baby language

his hands are so small!! my hands are like 10 times bigger!!
declan: who's this??

Haven't been blogging recently so there's a lot of pictures waiting for me to post up. So i've decided to split up the post else this is just going to get too long and i'm getting lazy scrolling up and down the page within the small typing box!! Seriously... someone needs to do something about the typing space for the compose post box!! Bad design on their part... some improvements needs to be done!!

2008-11-28T03:26:00.000-08:00

I've screwed up. It just fell through and i'm so disappointed with myself.
I can't believe i can actually feel sleepy during an exam!!
I was in a trance like state when i was writing my paper.I was actually doubting what i was writing as i was writing.. i can't believe it man! I'm so screwed!

2102 tomorrow can't be any better... i'd have to stay up whole night to study for it. Hope i'll be able to finish it somehow! Just gotta do wat i can do and pray super hard. Gotta go.. gotta go nap. i can hardly keep my eyes open already.

rAndom

2008-11-27T03:35:00.000-08:00

I felt like blogging badly while i was studying for 2102 which is not the paper that i'm actually tested on tomorrow! ahhaa.. well.. it's been a hidden module long enough and i thought that it's a high time to bring it to light and start mugging hard for it!

This is really random but i felt like writing a list of food that I wanna eat after my exams.. The exams never fails to make me crave for some food that i could get any other time. Odd but proven true, I've never failed to head directly for those food right after my exams regardless of how tired i was. So hmmmm... here it is:

(1) Eggs benedict
(2) Nice, fluffy all english style non macs pancakes
(3) American carrot cake
(4) Omelet butter rice with beef from Ma Maison
(5) Korean style beef soup
(6) Bibimbap
(7) Cream puff from tampopo deli (heard it's good but i've never tried it)
(8) Custard mian jian kueh that the japanese fair isetan scotts always have
(9) Spaghetti from Ma Maison/Spagheddies
(10) Ben & Jerry's ice cream (strawberry cheesecake & cookie & dough flavoured one please)
(11) A good high tea buffet with loads of desserts on the sides

OK OK.. this list is getting way too long.. i think i should stop here.. else it's just going to make me feel so bad coz i'm still 2 days away from my last paper! 2 more days and i'll be free from this hell that had trapped me in between school and home. 2 more freaking days!

Hellelujah to my freedom! Sat.. 29th nov! COme quick! COme to me soon.. COme to me NOW!!!

Guess what??? It's finally my birthday!!

2008-11-23T03:33:00.000-08:00

I'm back! Wat an unfruitful week.. and i thought i would have been more hardworking! yeah right... I was so totally burnt out i was slacking more than i was studying i think! i didn't dare to do any other modules coz i had fallen behind with 2100 computer organisation by so many chapters i had to do something about it before i'm really screwed upside down inside out by that stupid mod!! my gosh.. pipelining.. cache-ing.. virtual memory... they used to be technical terms that should meant nothing to me and i was happy that it didn't mean anything much to me until now!

Weng weng.. please let us all off the hook man.. it sucks needing to take the mod and study around 20 chapters alone for this! just let it be an easy paper.. i beg u man! it was so demoralizing just reading the past year paper and i wasn't kidding! it was totally demoralising.. i read with my mouth half open in shock! It didn't matter if it was open book or not.. it was impossible!! totally impossible!

IT's my birthday today~ 23th nov 1988... 20 years ago i was born. Happily. crying. leading a pretty uneventful life.. BUT today?? It was more then eventful! it was miserable! my first thought this morning was spent sorting through all the concepts for 2100. 15 mins on the bed.. and i was sorting through my 2100 concepts mentally before i even open my eyes to welcome the day! That was that... received a lot of birthday greetings today too! so happy everyone actually remembered that it was my birthday today! seriously! thanks everyone! love yah loads!! mucks! Oh OH.. i realised this american star called Miley Cyrus have the same birthday as me! happy 16th birthday girl... though i don't really know who the hell she is.. i'm really really behind these things.. I've only read that she acted in this nickelodeon show called hannah montana. Anyways.. happy birthday to her.

Behold guys.. here's my lovely birthday cake! yums...

Happy 20th birthday to myself!

Didn't have all the pictures with me.. but i'll post the pictures from the other cameras later... Look!! i found this interesting thing at the airport when i was studying there yesterday!

Guess what are these!! ..... Trolleys!! rows & rows of them! so neatly arranged!
And this is my table! piled up with 2100 stuff! I was so bored reading i actually fell asleep upright!
2100 had been crowned the best night story ever!
It has the magic to make anyone fall asleep at anytime of the day!!

my impromptu picture.. mommy(in red) aunt(in pink) u think they look like each other??

Finally... the weekly dose of my cute little nephew.. i really think his pictures have filled up my blog more than any other pictures man.. well.. who cares.. he's cute! a little devil now! if u don't give him his milk on time he's going to scream and shout at u till u do.. my gosh.. and he can really scream man.. he makes everyone nervous just screaming. O.. there's this really cute picture of declan sleeping with his dad. Only if i can get my hands on those. I'll post it up immediately man.. it's so funny! Seriously.. the saying like father like son really isn't some joke!

Look!! declan's got boobs! did u see.. seee see??

I reckon he looks like some character from somewhere.. i just can't of what! But it's cute! look at him pout!
declan:Gimme my milk!! Now! I'm the little emperor remember?

emperor with his dad's monkey toy. This pic just don't look as good as the bear one. for some odd reason

Yawns.. i'm tired! come on auntie g.. say another nursery rhyme.. i'm bored of this already

Yo.. who's the man? ME of course... Look at me!! Alright enough of the photos 2nd aunt where's my milk?

Declan's thoughts:
Declan loves auntie g's chinese nursery rhymes and those odd actions.
Declan loves looking at his daddy.
Declan loves his mommy.
Declan loves his great grandma.
Declan loves his da gu.
Declan loves grandpa & grandma
Declan loves all his aunts & uncles.
Declan's almost 2 months old already
So where is my Clare aunt? I haven't seen her yet! When am i going to see her??
Is she going to bring me presents back soon??

In the mist of his complains.. I'm praying and praying that i'll be able to make it for my exams this time.. I totally don't have any confidence this time. Hugging the buddha's legs really tight now and i hope it'll help! PLEASE PRAY FOR ME GUYS! PASS ME ALL UR LUCK IN THE MID TIME! i really need all those luck to guess my way through the mcqs provided there are actually any this time!

2008-11-18T04:33:00.001-08:00

Pipelining? pipelining? stall? flush? control hazard? forwarding? What the hell man.. seriously! 80 over pages of pipelining is threatening to burn my brains and simultaneously cause it to combust! TO hell with it! Just adding one forward unit or one hazard control unit takes like over 10 pages and 4 diagrams to explain it! like seriously! come on dude! it's time to give points and not explain to oblivion man!

I constantly feel the dread of studying for 2100 and the worst part to studying is that he jia took her last A levels paper today and she's off to have some fun while i'm sitting in the school library waiting drowning myself in pipelines and more of those rubbish. We'll good for her and bad for me man.. 29th nov.. when are u going to come??

It's my 20th birthday this weekend (Sunday to be more exact) and please don't ask me what i'll be doing.. coz u're just going to see one really really sad face and hear a really depressing reply "Studying pipelines lor" =(

If my birthday's coming that means xin xin's bday is coming too! saturday! happy 20th birthday pal! I'm glad i've known u for half my lifetime! U're a really good friend! Don't feel too sad about not being able to celebrate ur birthday coz i'm in the same predicament too!

To make myself feel happier about my birthday i shall write all the things i plan to buy right after my exams:
(1) a nice camera with probably 8 mp and above. 10 would be good!
(2) bobbi brown's compact foundation..... my miserable amount left will be unlikely to last me the entire holidays
(3) a new laptop... one that is lighter than 2kg will be really nice
(4) a new phone... the company with the starting letter "N" will not be supported by me anymore! the phone i have now sucks to the core man
(5)oh yeah.. not forgetting xin xin's present.

Ok... this list of very expensive stuff will take a hard knockout at my wallet but well.. i need that laptop and the foundation. the rest.. i'll see what i can afford after i get my essentials.

Phenomenon??!!

2008-11-10T22:44:00.000-08:00

As I was walking past my faculty in school yesterday it hit me suddenly that there's this phenomenon or you can call it a strange sight that can only be seen in my faculty. I never realised it for like 2 sems coz i practically trudge through the place hoping I will never have a need to walk though those doors ever again. OR Maybe because I was just too tired to bother myself by looking at anything else but where i was walking. I so wanted to take a picture of that place as i was walking past it today!

I see everyone with a computer in front of them lined up in a neat row or in groups with screens of unimaginable horrors staring right down at them! And there they are frowning and staring right back at it. If you tend to walk past that place more than once a day you'd have notice that those people don't ever seem to move from their seat. They seem to be glued permenantly there for the entire day. From probably 9 in the morning till 12 at night, or they probably didn't even go home the day before?!!! "Camping" on the NUS grounds seems to be a pretty common i think?? Well i don't camp in school neither do i want to do that. I don't mind staying to study till 12 though, but the prospect of camping in school totally turns me off.

Oh by the way.. the above activity is what I'll call a hardcore coding camp. hahahaa... that sight seems to constantly remind me that I'll be probably doing much of the same thing in my 3rd and 4th year in school of course provided that i actually pass my exams! Which reminds me.. i should probably take a picture of it to prove my point!! ahhahaa.. it really is an amazing sight if you don't understand the pain those people are actually going through.

Just read dixC's blog he posted some really really pretty posters he made for his entreprenueral marketing module this sem. Seriously beautiful! I'll have to convince him to take me in as his disciple soon! ahhaaa.. photoshop-ing, java-ing and blog template-ing!! can't wait for the exams to be over!!

I must pass..
I must score.
I will drown those market spoilers that made my life so miserable
I will slash my way through any obstructions
Anyone who comes in my way you better watch out!!

Obama's new regime focuses about the idea of "We can do it" so bring it on man you market spoilers. Come and gimme all u've got! I'll truimph you!

God.. please make those hardcore studying in the library this sem work! I beg you to not make me feel like i'm a useless piece of crap zombie-ing around in this highly efficient, realistic, monetary, more mechanical than humanistic world. Spread some love.... Love loves company too.. though pain loves company even more!

rAnDom tHoughts!

2008-11-09T06:27:00.000-08:00

Oh my gosh... my brain is so saturated with finance jargons and formulas i feel like puking so i'm here to release and spread some pain.. ahhahaa.!!

He jia's & timmybear's having their A's this week so i've been hearing loads of stories again! Jia totally can't stomach the stress level. Every morning before her paper she'll feel like puking and she's having insomia again.. haiz.. poor thing.. and she don't feel that she did well for her maths paper. Than again.. A's papers are design to give u a shock of your life.. so don't worry so much. there is always the magic of the bell curve !! Timmybear's doing pretty well... he's like a totally cool bear.. steady pon pi pi... no stress de.. totally cool..

Seriously some random thoughts here.. why does korean shows always have scenes when the main lead misses each other at some train station and stuff like that.. and when they have some super duper sad scenes it'll be at some beach or some bus stops???!!! WHY why why???

Been amassing songs from almost everywhere.. my cousin, monP.... mainly these people.. i shall expand my search to include more people! Wanna drop me some songs?? nudge me on msn and share ur fav song with me!Any gendre is welcome.. prob except techno.. not really my kinda song.. it's a bit too electrical. Listening to high society and christmas jazz now... it's so good!!

Listening to christmas songs makes me feel like it's already christmas. It's so relaxing to listen to christmas songs.. makes me feel so happy as though the holidays are already here. CHRISTMAS! i can't wait for christmas to come! already wanna check out my christmas presents! Love the christmas atmosphere. it's jovial, peaceful and homely.

Yesterday was da da's official bday.. which means my birthday is coming too!! 15 days from her's so it's 14 days more to my birthday. Not really looking forward to my birthday this year.. haiz.. coz that means in 16 days i'll be sitting for my first end term paper(finance) it's totally marked by despondence....2102. 2100. lit.2250 actually all the modules i'm taking this sem seems to be so.!! I totally don't have any confidence in any one of them. well enough of ranting here are some photos from that day!!

Uncle charles with his "3 months pregnant tummy and da da acting dumb!!

da da making a funny pose under request. looks quite dumb right? ahaha...

OOpsss.. hope she doesn't see this.. SHHH... everyone!

a close up of this nice + pricey cake! glad everyone liked it! i chose it!!

I've just realised that there are really a lot of "little emperor's" pictures in this blog!! i mean out of my 17 or is it 19 post i have 3-4 post just on him! I have half the mind of creating a blog just for him. Well.. it depends on my mood than.. i'll have to create a new blogspot account so everyone can edit it! especially his mom(jie ling jie jie) and dad(mark kor kor). i think they'll really appreciate it?

OK.. now for the weekly inflow of "little emperor" pictures.. oh.. yesterday reina jie jie came up with a new nickname for him again! ahhaa. he's called du fei coz he has so much fats that his neck is totally hidden beneath all those fats! ahaha.. well.. he shall be called little emperor coz auntie g say we shouldn't call him fatty! ahhaaa.. Oh some old phots from last week too!!

auntie g with a totally emotionless little emperor

leng mai with the super cute looking emperor

blur blur mommy with declan

All the three mai's above wasn't very happy with me when i didn't have a picture of them with emperor in my little emperor's picture depository. So here are they're photos to appease them! ahhaaa..have too many pictures of him so to prevent this from becoming a declan growing up blog record I've selected only a few of it. But Now comes the ultimate cuteness... this has to be shared!!

cute hur?? oh man.. i reckon he looks like a bear now! ahhaa.. posing with clare jie jie's bear bear

Well that's it from me now.. look forward to more photos of better quality when i finally get myself a new camera!! byez... everyone.. shall plunge back to the pile of notes waiting and calling out to me as i'm typing this post. Pain loves company.

floating in a dream...

2008-11-07T23:28:00.000-08:00

Oh man... As we (me and des) were studying in the school library today(sat) des decided to show me the pictures she took in Germany. OH SHIT! I have half the mind of dropping everything and fly there like right now! I'm so jealous... the place look so fun!! What a cool place to visit.

Should have taken german with her in the first sem when i was suffering from an overdose of java then i could have gone with her to germany during the last school vacation! oh man.. i'm still jealous. She went to all the places I so badly wanna visit! Prague.London.Germany.OOOOO... i wanna go!! me me me me.. Venice.Vienna.OOOOO....

Please pack me in ur luggage if u're going there!!

Ok back to reality.... the entire world seems to be in school. The library seems so packed it totally feels like a school day. Now i know what it means to study in a local uni. Terrible terrible...

the constant nagging voice in the brain

2008-11-05T05:16:00.000-08:00

I'm in denial.
I'm in pain.
I'm in a state of panic.
I need to get this out of my system.
I'm looking like some sick clown drowning myself in the sea of words that meant nothing at all to me.
And YES I'm searching for release.
A release from my current state of hell.
A release that will give me some hope in life, determination continue to roll around in the muddy grounds in hell.
Yes HELL.
Welcome to my world: the world of codes, structures filled with adjoining lines that links to everything and nothing, sentences in the books/film/plays loaded with hidden meanings, diversified risk/expected returns/CAPM.
I desperately need a study plan! At the rate I'm going 2102 is going to become the blacksheep this sem. Functional dependency?? normalisation what the hell is that?? I'm going to go insane soon if i cannot understand this chapter soon!! 2100 is starting to become interesting for some wierd reason, probably because I'm insane? Hiroshima mon amour?? Hiroshima my love. yeah right.. i bet this book will drown me during the final sem lit paper!!
Now all i want to do is to quickly get through my gradiance lab exercise so that the constant nagging in my brain will stop and i can finally be at peace with myself. A state of mind that is much appreciated now since i've got a finance test and 2250 end term test to study for too!
I've gotta get it over and done fast and NOW!!
I'm anxious.
I'm nuts.
I'm tired.
I'm stressed.
Goodbye sanity.
Embracing the call of my books.

2008-10-26T18:27:00.000-07:00

Went over to my grandma's place last week,ate this extremely nice, juicy tender piece of pork rib.You can't imagine how wonderful it tasted.The meat marinated with sweet sauce, then cooked to perfection.. yums.!!After dinner there's always the family talk. Everyone's putting ideas of holiday in my head, my cousin and cousin-in-law was planning to take a short getaway to somewhere near. My sis is already on some cruise having fun. Cec is already in Shanghai. Reina jie jie said she maybe planning to go taiwan at the end of the year.Uncle chek and family will be heading over to hokkaido at the end of the year too. haiz... what abt me?? no travel plans.. no money... no life...

Sorry guys.. I know it's getting boring seeing my little nephew's picture in half of my post for this month but I can't help it!!I haven't gone out with my different cliques in a while so I absolutely have no pictures in my depository to post! SOOO>>>

mORe mORe mORe pictures of our little emperor with all the different people carrying him! My target is to shoot a picture of him with everyone in the family! That'll be damn cool! He'll know how much he's loved the next time he sees his baby photos...

Finally i caught the cool dude!! (Forced into position)

Ah po telling me not to take her picture coz she's old & wrinkly. heehee.. but i quickly snapped a shot before she could object to it! ehehheee..

Emperor's pouting coz he doesn't want to be put down!

(peeking through one eye) So cute!! ahaha..

(*emperor thinking)hmmm.. so comfy ahhh.. fleshy.

tAlkIng tO a Dead mAn?!!??

2008-10-25T17:16:00.000-07:00

to my dear Shakespeare,
Why do you fill your plays with allegories? Why are they not in plain English? hOw I wish I could talk to you directly and ask you about your plays! Why are u dead?? Is there really such a person called William Shakespeare??

Yours sincerely
Regina

The tempest is driving me near nuts! I can't convince myself with the points that I've stated. I still think that it's too weak an argument for a 1000 word assignment!! It's killing me and eating up all my time, since sat I've been reading truckloads and truckloads of articles, writings, essays, you name it! I've typed out all the keywords that i can currently think of about this topic:

" Discuss the theme of paternalism in The Tempest and its significance to the play, making close reference to the text."

I'll have to come up with something by today else I'm sure I'll never be able to finish this assignment in time, not forgetting I still have a report I'll have to churn out by friday that's another of my major worries. Haiz.. when is this ever going to end?? I'll have to reinstall my soc-vpn all over again. It's giving me problems again! I wonder what's wrong!! arghhh... i'll fix it soon! I'll have to crap something out for my lit assignment first. OK back to work.... pictures later!

2008-10-23T19:15:00.001-07:00

Cutie's hair smells weird. We reckon it has the salty smell to it. Queer hur??
A few more pictures that i was lazy to post the last time. Oh... in case of any confusion Cutie shall be called "the little emperor" from now on, a nickname we came up with when we'er joking the other day. Enjoy clare jie jie...

emperor's clothing for his 1 month old celebration made by mommy!

us disturbing him when he's sleeping! don't these two people look more and more like each other? Scary!!

emperor's usual sleeping position!

this was probably taken when he was younger.. he looks so cute!!

reina jie jie with emperor

he jia holding him. He looks like he's enjoying it man!

(don't u think xiao huang di here looks like a koala?? so cute!!)

Still haven't taken a few people carrying this little emeperor. Lacking of pictures from rachel, titosh, ah po, uncle chek, uncle charles, daddy, aidan, nicole.Shall post more when I've finally forced them into my picture taking position!! Especially titosh.. the cool dude haven't been around since this saga craze!

I think I'll need to start saving to get a good camera soon else my phone's memory card will really explode soon. Hint hint to everyone... a camera??? Sony?? Birthday's coming!!!! ahhaahahaa......

Thinking of going for this korean ski trip cum exchange program.. i get to live with a real korean in their house!! that's just so cool lar!! BUT the $1800 price tagged to it is turning me off, my bank account had been bleeding ever since the taiwan trip how am i ever going to afford my hong kong/ taiwan trip the next holiday?? I wonder....

2008-10-18T11:15:00.001-07:00

This post is for the benefit of my lovely cousin Clare who's in UK now soon to be going to Spain to do volunteer work. Missing out on all the action happening now at home with the newborn baby!

The entire three storey semi D has baby stuff in all corners now!! And when i mean all corners i meant everywhere... living room.. computer area... EVERYWHERE!
Aunt G's "nong nong ah " and her lullaby song is replayed again! hahahaa.. (insider joke) Everyone's going goo goo ga ga over the baby. My mommy's going over to bath him every morning, aunt leng and aunt G going back to carry him when they have the time, cutie's daddy and mommy losing sleep coz cutie refuses to sleep at night. Everyone's going back to see cutie every week... he's such an EMPEROR! should have been called emperor chua! Oh and dinsy jokingly said he's going to be growing a third chin soon!! He's getting chubby....

And I've taken up the task to take loads and loads of pictures of this cutie that we recently welcome into our family and so... BEWARE. This is going to be a post filled with loads and loads and loads of pictures.!! hahaha....

(cutie looking like he's going to cry soon.. oooo.. don't cry.. nong nong ahhhh)
(PS: special photo requested coz of the nice dress she was wearing)

(cutie with hot grandma and cool grandpa)

(cutie with super funky aunt and uncle chek)
(cutie with the chek family-missing one!)
(cutie with piggy-me & chio bu da jie. cutie looks uncomfortable but at least he didn't cry!)

(cutie looking super comfortable)

(cutie's mommy learning how to carry him in his super comfortable position like the previous photo)

(cutie enjoying his meal and his time in his daddy's arms)

(cutie with the forever young aunt leng and daughter)

(cutie frowning.. looking so matured now! awhhhh..)

(me trying to get a pic of cutie with his eyes open... this was the best i could do)

(cutie enjoying his breeze in front of the fan & da jie looking messy)

(cutie with da jie and his daddy)

(cutie with timmybear who's forced into this position by me!! wwahhhaaaa)
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and to congratulate you for getting this far.....MY FAVORITE PHOTO OF CUTIE!

(cutie dreaming and smiling! awhhhh... so cute!!)

I told you there's a hell lot of photos.. not done got lazy with those that i took during his one month celebration... so too bad!!

Studying in the library yet again.....

2008-10-16T02:49:00.000-07:00

As mentioned, I am studying in the library yet again. It just gets boring when you study alone! Can't believe i actually did that in JC. I reported at 9 am every morning one month before the A levels at the same table in Terminal 2 changi airport. Plonked my butt in the chair and started studying. Moved only to go to the loo and at 4 to get food when I decided I was getting too hungry after missing my lunch.
I was actually rather productive today.. Considering the fact that I actually finished relational algebra's notes for 2102 and MPIS part 2 for 2100. I was half way through revising for capital budgeting part 1 for my finance quiz next monday when i got so bored I just couldn't concentrate on studying.. so here i am.. blogging!

I had an extremely rude shock in my lab class this morning. My hard work creating the extremely messy ALU circuit for 2100 gave the wrong output! OH MY!! I almost wanted to faint know that! SO there I was debugging like crazy in the lab. 1 1/2 hour spent pouring over the entire circuit. It was messy.. but i didn't care as long as it gave me the correct output!

Saw kid's and wq's circuit after i was done with mine and hell their's looked so clean! NEAT And NICE.. well.. I've decided I was going to get 0 for my "extremely messy and unintuitive circuit" so to hell with weng weng's assignment questions! Let me show u how my circuit looked like.. i don't even know how i actually managed it but i really did man!

Looks pretty good like that right?? hahaa.. You'll faint after to see the uber messy connecting lines i've created! hahaa...
Ahhh.. can't wait for monday to come! After the extremely annoying finance quiz is over on monday at 3 , i'll be free to do whatever i like for a few days!! For the past one month i've been having exams, tests and more quizzes. My seat in the Central library -reference library is going to soon be labelled with my name soon. I show up in the library every single day, plogging my butt in the chair till it's way past the rush hour before i head home.

After monday I'll have to start getting the 2102 report ready before the guys decided to kill me for not doing anything. Oh and not forgetting.. a 1000 word lit assignment due yet again.. haiz.. when is this hell going to end???!!!

Da jie just told me she wanna go taiwan again! BUT i'm in the "lovely" state of being BROKE! I have yet to recover from the spurgle in taiwan.. the two of us "battled and won" 12 pairs of shoes from taiwan. If I were to go again I'll remember to apply first for an overseas credit card and to bring lots of extra sing dollars to change in case I've ran out on mine. I'll be doing lots of clothes shopping! I'll have to bring back a luggage filled with new clothes this time! hahaaa...

Missing the extremely smooth bean curd tart... missing the lovely buttery taste of popcorn... missing shopping in taiwan... missing fun times spent with the 2 crazy A(s)

talking crap..

2008-10-14T22:53:00.001-07:00

Got bored of doing my stupid 2100 circuit creation assignment so I'm here to blog! hahaa...
I'm bored... and there is simply no one to disturb here in the library. Most of the peps i know love and adores to hang out in com1 and here I am lonely in the library coz des isn't here to study with me. How boring.!!

After lunching with ydings and gaode yesterday it had suddenly dawn upon me that I absolutely have no idea what is showing in the theaters now. I haven't seen the inside of a cinema since my last movie batman. Totally missing the taste of those lovely, buttery popcorns and the big screens with ear-blasting sound boosters. hmm.. maybe i could convince sis2s to go catch something with me this weekend.. hmmm...

There's nothing interesting these few days as I've been cooping myself up in the reference library of the Central library. Good place to study.. extremely quiet and of course extremely boring.. hence the optimization of my concentration.

Oh man I'm really bored.. I think i shall leave the library and go search for someone to talk to now.. bye peps!!

After thought (the bluest eye)

2008-10-13T06:23:00.000-07:00

Incest. child abuse. rape. discrimination. psychological imprisonment. self-hatred.

This has gotta be the most depressing book I've ever read, usually I seem to unconsciously avoid these sort of books. Books that appeal to me are stuff like: fantasy. thrillers. mystery. (mainly fiction).

But I'm "forced" this time to read this book that has all the elements mentioned above. As I was reading the analysis of the book, I got to see the carefully crafted and planted foreshadows, words, images used by Tony Morrison.

And I have been enlightened.

I finally understood why i never once got attracted by this genre of books that have gotten popular these few years. It is too close to reality for comfort. I've been trying to escape/avoid the reality that is revealed in these books.

When I am forced to meet with such a sudden crush of realism it makes me culpable of the hurt that they feel. Their suffering. I've placed a distance(my safety barrier) between me and such reality. I would rather drown aimlessly in the world filled with damsels in distress, dragons, knights, guns, heroes... then to face such sadness. The dichotomy of a beautiful as well as an ugly world.

It makes me doubt who I really am.
It makes me realize that I could be an Anglophile.
I could be hiding my self-hatred with an indirect and perhaps self destructive means.

The pessimism of the book and the passiveness of the protagonist of the book veils "the light" from the reader. But as the saying goes before there could be light there will be darkness, so the inherent hopefulness of the idea of love in the book brings me to realize how valuable kinship and friendship is to me. It could have been the reason why i stayed sane in such a chaotic environment. This book taught me that material comfort, neatness and quietness could be destructive or become deadly themselves if not accompanied by genuine human warmth.

If you are feeling e-mo, i suggest strongly not reading this book. But if you are interested in expanding your scope of understanding of human beings around the world i strongly suggest reading this book [the bluest eye] by Toni Morrison.

plAnning fOr tHe hOlidAys alReady??!

2008-10-07T21:37:00.000-07:00

You know what?? I actually completed the circuit diagram for that stupid state diagram!!(the only crazy three circle diagram??)

Hahaha.. actually I had absolutely no idea how i arrived at the answer.. some help for kid though. Our conversation went something like this:
kid: just stare at the truth table and replicate the entire thing
me: what?? how?
kid: I don't know, i just stared at it and replicate what do u mean how!
me: okok.. fine fine..
In the end, i stared hard at the tips pdf wong wong sent and derived a circuit diagram out of what i understood.The entire pdf was almost useless except for the part on the Sum of product term formula. I still can't understand how wong wong derive that. I'll have to ask the guys later.. need someone to actually explain it to me. Getting dumb lar.. getting real dumb.

Just read up the 2102 project question for the project discussion later. Not sure what i can contribute to the group though. PHP and creating user interfaces are out of my scope of knowledge. In fact, the only time i've even heard about PHP was when i first took 2102!!
I've been dedicated the job of the report writer as usual (no surprise there), it's the only thing I think i can do well. ahahhaa.. sounding depressed hur?? I'll need to bug the guys to give me some insights to the codings that they will be doing. I think the only thing i can do beside the report will be the DDL for the database. The two simplist thing in the entire project.

This sem is probably the most hetic sem since i've start school. The most things to learn in the shortest time. I constantly feel like a sponge absorbing and absorbing and i've came up with a list of things I'll need to learn before the next sem. Haven't actually written the list out yet so i still don't know if it's going to be a long one but here is wat i have in mind:

(1) learn Java from scratch again(1101/1102)
(2) building on that, start on reading 2261 java Netbeans
(3) practise to be ultra efficient in photoshop/illustrator/video editing
(4) learn HTML and PHP
(5) read everything on my book list...which seems to be getting pretty long!!

Yeah.. this looks like what i have in mind now. It's going to be a really busy holidays this time with christmas and all.

OOOHh ahhhhh... korea!! this just sounds darn cool! des found this out when we were cramming truckloads of information into our heads over the hari raya public holiday in school.

It's about this YMCA korea ski trip.
There's this freaking cool homestay thing too!!oh my god!! it's like damn damn damn cool! I WANNA GO!! But first.. i'll need to find a sponser..hahahhaa. KOREA can you imagine that??The food, the skiing, more food oh and of course if i'm lucky i might get to try those big colourful korean traditional dresses or meet some cute guy there. hahahaa...

Advertisement time: Anyone interested in going?? Please tell me!

This is really going to be a really busy busy busy holiday!

rANting.. ranTinG.!!

2008-10-02T19:12:00.000-07:00

I've just realised that by putting off checking exam results helps to lessen the pain of looking at it. Just got the mood to check my results this morning, knew that nothing good will come out of it and i was right!! Well... then again. it's computing.

Finance paper last night was a total nightmare. I expected the paper to be tough but i didn't know tough meant not even having enough time to press my two calculators!! Seriously speaking... i've tried hard for finance. I think it's the only module that I'm not lagging behind. Serious catching up to do for the rest. Lab for 2100 was on flip-flops and it was horrible!!

Nope.. I'm not talking about flip flops as in slippers flip flop. I'm talking about flip-flops as in the digital circuit term. It's a bistable multivibrator with two stable states capable of serving as one bit of memory. Don't stare at this part too hard.. coz that's about all i really know on it and i'm suppose to solve this question~!

The model solution came up to about 18 NAND gates at 3 levels, 1 decoder and 3 flip-flops with cables joining joining to so many gates i couldn't trace the entire shit!

Something to be glad of though.. I'm finally able to take a break! This weekend is a weekend packed with lots of gatherings. And I'm finally able to see cutie Declan after all these weeks. Mom said he's getting really really cute. Can't wait to see him this weekend but before that... I'll have to complete my tutorials first. With three tutorials of different modules on monday, can you imagine my pain of rushing though all the tutorials? I meant 2 computing modules and 1 finance tutorial all on one day. But i had no choice.. i had to pack my monday timeslot otherwise i'll have nothing to do after my 2100 tutorial at 12 till my 4pm lit lecture.

Da jie made this really nice tasting tiramisu on Hari Raya. A treat really for me after slogging hard over finance in the yih study area the entire day. It's really good! Lots and lots of biscuits socked generously in baileys with really good and creamy mascarpone cheese. It's finger licking good!! OKOK... I have to get back to work now... I still have to solve that stupid diagram up there coz wong wong (lecturer) decided to extend the submission of the lab to make sure that he doesn't see a diaster strike. Will be right back with more cutie's pictures after i snap them up like crazy on sat! And after ally decides to send me all the pictures we took at the F1 practice runs.

Me...mine...mind...

2008-09-23T03:34:00.000-07:00

Let me refresh your memory on my disgusting 2100 paper.
Haiz.. and as i was saying i'm screwed and truth behold i indeed am. How great! It was a game of luck vs pattern recognition. As i was looking through all the other mcq questions that i did i realised i had more than half of it not completed. and that means that i either have no idea what it is talking about or i needed more then 5 mins to do that question. So anyways that was only the horrible section A mcq.

Here comes section B. 4 questions 5 marks each. And just great! i looked through it and cursed silently to myself. Shit what the hell are these questions asking for man!! Behold the legendary Zero for this section. And there was it! i just scribbled some answers for the first two questions and left the last two blank. Then i went back guessing the rest of the questions for section A.

The very worst part came after the paper. Wwf said: "90% of the people in this world had no idea what was written in the paper u just did. 80% of the people in nus can't even answer half of those question. So don't worry u're in the top of ur tier. "
Haha... what rubbish was he talking about man.. seriously.. so he expected us to not know how to do the questions i guess. And so i';m going to buong this paper.. one more paper for me to buong.. cs 2102 database.

I've just discovered today that it's a close book exam!! hahaha.. and with my knowledge of SQL now.. i think i'm way beyond screwed!
hahahaha.. that's it guys.. i'm so doomed.!!!

Presenting........ a cutie!!!

2008-09-19T09:58:00.000-07:00

Heee hee... i don't mean myself! hahahaha.. i seriously don't. Here are the photos that i've promised to put up with pictures of me little nephew. He's such a charm. So cute!!

Declan Chua. born on the 15th September 2008.
On the very day that his grandparents got married at least 30 plus years ago. What a wonderful gift to them.

Introducing.... the little darling!

(sleeping as usual)

(declan with his mommy)
(declan with his grandma)
(check out his little hands outside his blanki ..declan trying to reach for milk.. )

Can't stand it! he's so cute.. oh did i mention that he has double eyelids like his dad? but it's not the obvious kind.. it's the inside flip kind. Erm not sure how to describe that.. but yeah. he's cute anyways.

Mommy just went to visit him yesterday and she said that he's all awake. crying and shitting like all babies do. Shall go visit him this weekend again before school starts and i'm all stuck under the pile of never ending work!

Bad morning.. bad afternoon.. goodnight

2008-09-15T07:04:00.000-07:00

MONDAYS MONDAYS... the worst day of the week. EVER!

Mondays defeats any other days that i thought was bad. Today was the worst of all the bad mondays. My brain had to freeze up today. I mean why today?? it's very much in demand today for the finance quiz. project meeting. 2100 tutorial. Oh did i mention i went to tutorial today without doing any work??

It was terrible enough to even go for 2100 tutorials with work done. It's even worst going without. i was so lost trying to understand whatever shit Wwf was trying to teach. Lit was not that bad. I like listening to people's analysis of the book the bad part is i haven't even gotten the book to read it yet and the lecture on it is already over. Lucky for me there is a one week recess break next week. Hopefully i can catch up with the already piling workload.

Alright.. so it's a really bad day. Which started off with a headache. So my face was pretty 'black' and totally unapproachable today. I think i was pretty much frowning off the entire day. BUT around 8 i saw an sms that totally lit up my day..... DECLAN CHUA DU SIN is born!! woo hoo..

My little nephew.!! can't wait to carry him around. He's so cute! But i can't upload the picture for some reason so we've gotta defer the pictures for a while but don't fret. there's going to be loads and loads of pictures of him soon. hahahaha.. cute little thing.

Congrats to Mark kor kor and jie ling jie jie and Wie r yuuuuu(Cheers in korean-- adopted from korean shows) to Declan.

OK going back to work. Tons to catch up. Look forward to loads of pictures.!!

Screwed is spelt with an 'S' for a reason (s...h...i...t)

2008-09-13T21:43:00.000-07:00

Finance quiz is on monday and i'm pretty much screwed for that too! 6 chapters that i've read and understood but that's not the point! the point is that it is a close book quiz and since i'm not really certain about the calculations and the way of getting about doing it I'm to conclude just ScREWED! woo hooo.. hahahaha.. oh not to mention i haven't done any of my tutorials for tomorrow. ain't that just great??

I'm just praying that next week will go past in a flash and i can find lots of good study areas to fully make use of my recess week that will make or break my grades this sem. I'm counting on myself to study hard and i hope that i will really do that. I've gotta swollow at least 3 of my lit books. Mastering SQL 800 page book and well.. pretty much my entire 2100 digital logic circuit text.Plus my readings for 2250. Not to mention the projects that i will have to complete in that measly one week break.

Wish me luck!!

Literature & Programming in one breathe??!!!

2008-09-12T12:38:00.000-07:00

I never understood why my friends hated literature.

Maybe because literature is like programming quoted from something a senior said..

Writing a poem is the way you put certain words together to form a piece of art.If everything goes well you get a good one. Sometimes seemingly simple words put together a strong image just like programming does.

This is about the best description i've heard about programming from just about anyone.

A programmer would most likely to tell you that the best program is the one with the shortest lines of codes. The words reveals the complexity in thinking and the absolute brillianess of a writer.

Strange thoughts my senior has. Strange indeed don't you think?A really nice way to describe things. Just this thought got me thinking how brilliant this senior is. How noobified i feel compared to the tons of brilliant people i meet in school. Hopefully i can make my stay there long enough to 'pick on their brains.

Meeting loads of brilliant/brainy people in school seems to make up one of the strange reasons that drags me out of bed and to school everyday.School's pretty interesting right? How contradictory it is to my previous post? Hahaha.. but then again i just completed my lit assignment and i am allowed to be as such. Right?

IroNic...ReFlective... SaTirical..

Maybe now i understand a bit to why my friends hate literature.

Maybe.... just maybe... Literature is like programming. English that doesn't really make much sense but to the selected group of people.

I seem to have lots of thoughts now.... isn't it just a great time to get a blog?

This is just something dixon showed me that i thought is pretty funny so here it is... titled "Are computers Male or Female"

Five reasons to believe computers are female:
No one but the Creator understands their internal logic.
The native language they use to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else.
The message "Bad command or file name" is about as informative as, "If you don't know why I'm mad at you, then I'm certainly not going to tell you".
Even your smallest mistakes are stored in long-term memory for later retrieval.
As soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half your paycheck on accessories for it.

However, another group of computer scientists (all female) think that computers should be referred to as if they were male. Their reasons follow:
Five reasons to believe computers are male:
They have a lot of data, but are still clueless.
They are supposed to help you solve problems, but half the time they are the problem.
As soon as you commit to one you realize that, if you had waited a little longer, you could have obtained a better model.
In order to get their attention, you have to turn them on.
Big power surges knock them out for the rest of the night.

(http://www.joke-archives.com/computers/compmale.html)

The first but definitely not the last!

2008-09-11T18:30:00.001-07:00

My very first post!! I know that the background of my blog still pretty much look like their in the dirt(especially since i'm using the default templates). IF any of my nus friends sees this they'll pretty much swear their heads off this. And the conversation will most probably go something like this:
friend: what the F* is that ugly default template doing ?
me: what?? I'm lazy!
friend: like hell.. it doesn't take an effort to go find some templates and just paste it on first what?
me: yeah... okok
(exaggerated version1)

Well.. i'm just procrastinating here coz there are a pile of unfinished work waiting for me to do.(No surprise here hur?)

I have a feeling that this is going to be a loong long post.

Well... It takes less than a month for school to suck all the fun out of me. My mood had been sliding and my workload has been increasing exponentially. That doesn't even sound as bad as it is. Mastering SQL by Martin Gruber has just became my 'bible' and my laptop has now became my latest work companion. I can't seem to go anywhere to study without my laptop which proves to be very much of a chore since i'll need to find a powerpoint everywhere i go and of course it'll be better to have internet access then i'll really love that place! (HINTS:please tell me where i can find those places to study?)

Got barred from bringing in my notes and my gruber bible in yesterday at the national library's science and tech library. That anal security guard just had to check everything! How anal! Luckily, i was studying with Ade and she brought me to over to her school at city hall. And i spent the rest of the night there attempting to devour my 800 over pages bible. It's great to study outside where it's all quiet. I seem to be better able to concentrate there, i needed that! i have like 1 finance quiz and 1 cs2100 mid term exam next week plus a lit assignment to submit and a stupid cs2250 project meeting that just kept being postponed to attend.My plan is to finish my lit assignment today so that i can do some research in the reference library later to bump up the 'shallow-ness' of my analysis of the two poems. (quoted from a new friend from somewhere)

I have to admit that i'm pretty much digging up my own grave taking EN1101E: Understanding literary studies this sem. I really like reading all the lit books and learning how to analyse a poem. I genuiely think that it's interesting. But after talking/discussing to my fellow lit students in my tutorial class makes me think that i'm darn screwed up for this module. I can't analyse things as good as them coz all i read for school are just numbers and pictures and codes that are in english but don't really make much of a sense to anyone else but Soc people. Words and readings are about as foreign to me as those non english/ english codes. In conclusion, i'm screwed for this module.

And let's not even start on my cs modules. Those are incredibly long stories to tell. In short, i've got one lousy lecturer, one terribly fast going module that i have to chase up to after devouring my Mastering SQL bible and a hell lot of readings to do for another.

I think i shall stop here.. else it's really going to be a super long post. I'll put up more pictures later when i get bored of studying.Especially my dad's birthday pictures. Those pictures are really darn nice and it's a waste not to share it.