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After thought (the bluest eye)

Incest. child abuse. rape. discrimination. psychological imprisonment. self-hatred.

This has gotta be the most depressing book I've ever read, usually I seem to unconsciously avoid these sort of books. Books that appeal to me are stuff like: fantasy. thrillers. mystery. (mainly fiction).

But I'm "forced" this time to read this book that has all the elements mentioned above. As I was reading the analysis of the book, I got to see the carefully crafted and planted foreshadows, words, images used by Tony Morrison.

And I have been enlightened.

I finally understood why i never once got attracted by this genre of books that have gotten popular these few years. It is too close to reality for comfort. I've been trying to escape/avoid the reality that is revealed in these books.

When I am forced to meet with such a sudden crush of realism it makes me culpable of the hurt that they feel. Their suffering. I've placed a distance(my safety barrier) between me and such reality. I would rather drown aimlessly in the world filled with damsels in distress, dragons, knights, guns, heroes... then to face such sadness. The dichotomy of a beautiful as well as an ugly world.

It makes me doubt who I really am.
It makes me realize that I could be an Anglophile.
I could be hiding my self-hatred with an indirect and perhaps self destructive means.

The pessimism of the book and the passiveness of the protagonist of the book veils "the light" from the reader. But as the saying goes before there could be light there will be darkness, so the inherent hopefulness of the idea of love in the book brings me to realize how valuable kinship and friendship is to me. It could have been the reason why i stayed sane in such a chaotic environment. This book taught me that material comfort, neatness and quietness could be destructive or become deadly themselves if not accompanied by genuine human warmth.

If you are feeling e-mo, i suggest strongly not reading this book. But if you are interested in expanding your scope of understanding of human beings around the world i strongly suggest reading this book [the bluest eye] by Toni Morrison.

posted by lazyrpiggy @ 6:23 AM