{wAkiNg uP eVeryDay iS a pRevilge nOt an enTitlement }

the constant nagging voice in the brain

I'm in denial.
I'm in pain.
I'm in a state of panic.
I need to get this out of my system.
I'm looking like some sick clown drowning myself in the sea of words that meant nothing at all to me.
And YES I'm searching for release.
A release from my current state of hell.
A release that will give me some hope in life, determination continue to roll around in the muddy grounds in hell.
Yes HELL.
Welcome to my world: the world of codes, structures filled with adjoining lines that links to everything and nothing, sentences in the books/film/plays loaded with hidden meanings, diversified risk/expected returns/CAPM.
I desperately need a study plan! At the rate I'm going 2102 is going to become the blacksheep this sem. Functional dependency?? normalisation what the hell is that?? I'm going to go insane soon if i cannot understand this chapter soon!! 2100 is starting to become interesting for some wierd reason, probably because I'm insane? Hiroshima mon amour?? Hiroshima my love. yeah right.. i bet this book will drown me during the final sem lit paper!!
Now all i want to do is to quickly get through my gradiance lab exercise so that the constant nagging in my brain will stop and i can finally be at peace with myself. A state of mind that is much appreciated now since i've got a finance test and 2250 end term test to study for too!
I've gotta get it over and done fast and NOW!!
I'm anxious.
I'm nuts.
I'm tired.
I'm stressed.
Goodbye sanity.
Embracing the call of my books.

posted by lazyrpiggy @ 5:16 AM